I got up this morning, fairly chipper, which surprised me because I was so grumpy yesterday. I had the beginnings of an entry written, all about how feeling much better today was quite the waste of a grumpy mood.
Then I talk to Kurt, and things go downhill all over again.
Now I’m grumpy again.
It’s just that nothing changes. Nothing gets better. I feel like I’m not being taken seriously.
And then I read my friends’ blogs, most of whom are my parents’ age and have been married longer than I’ve been alive, and I lose hope that nothing will ever get better.
So now I have a choice to make. It seems that I can either shut up and make the best of it, and try not to feel the resentment that tends to build. Or I can be miserable and resentful, and fight all the time.
I wish there was the choice that everything would be resolved, and everything would work out happily ever after, but I just don’t see that as an option.
Although I guess I can hope………….